To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real

Day 27 - Your favorite year

Well in the past... I guess you could say 2006/2007 was one of my fave years... Charlie was born on the tail end of '06 so the last 2 months of that years were pretty amazing, being a new mom and all, and then '07, the first year of his life was pretty good as well.

But being a new mom to him was about the only thing good about those years. The Douche and I had split up shortly after Charlie was born b/c he was of the mindset that he didn't think he should be responsible for the baby, and that his days were better spent hanging out with his friends playing poker.

But we went to marriage counseling and got back together. And things were better, for awhile. He still wasn't much of a help as a father, but instead of going out every night, he went out a few nights a week.

Again should have realized back then that I deserved better, that my child deserved better. But I guess I just didn't know any better. I didn't have a lot of self worth back then.

I believed what he told me about being ugly, worthless, and not important. I just took all the abuse and kept quiet... silently falling apart more and more each day.

I really hope he treats his current girlfriend better... but granted, he treated me great in the beginning too... but over time, his facade fell apart and I was able to see him for the miserable selfish bastard he was.

I wish I could say that 2010 was another good year, b/c that was the year in which Timmy was born.... but we all know that shortly after he was born my life was turned upside down. Of course, now reflecting back, it was the best damn thing that could have ever happened to me, but of course, at the time extremely hard. Change is always hard, even if its for the best.

So I can honestly say, that so far, 2011 is my favorite year. I know we are only 3 months into it, and there are of course some dark clouds on the horizon with dealing with the divorce, and figuring out where I'm going to live, etc, but the positives of this year FAR outweigh the negatives. And I know as the months go by, this year is only going to get better :) My kids are growing and changing and bring so much joy to me... my relationship with Mr. Wonderful is the best I've ever been in, and my love is growing exponentially every day!