One complicates and one simplifies

Hey again, blog. It's me. Sorry I've been so neglectful lately. Apologies to my faithful readers. I will try to update more frequently, but have decided to take a month off from 30 Day Blog Challenges. The whole point is to do an entry a day... not a weeks worth in one day haha. So once things settle down again, we will see. For now, I will just blog as I can.

Remember awhile back me saying how I was tired of being afraid, and that it was time to let go of fear? Well this is still something I struggle with, daily.

Just when I think things are running smoothly, or getting better... Something tends to happen to foul it all up. I know, overall, life is good, and I am lucky, and I really should stop having pity parties for myself. There are a lot of people out there worse off than me.

I have my good health, I have wonderful children, a wonderful boyfriend, wonderful friends, a job, a car, and food in my fridge. Which I know, not everyone can say all that.

And yet, I live in fear. Mostly, it revolves around money woes. Trying now to find a cheap place to live. So many parables to consider. I just have to put my faith in whatever higher power out there that there may be, that everything happens for a reason, and that everything will work itself out in the end. That I'm stressing needlessly.

Life would just be too boring I guess, if it were easy. I guess life isn't meant to be easy. You got to take the good with the bad. I've just got to remember to breathe... and stay focused on the goal. To find  a place to live in 27 days. And to figure things out financially and with the divorce so that I can go back to school to get a better job, so that I won't have to worry so much!

No fear... Don't be afraid... this is just what I have to keep telling myself... No fear... Don't be afraid... No fear...

Problem is,

im still

afraid