Get out from under precipice and see the sky

Day 08 — A favorite photo that used to make you happy but now makes you angry/sad

The douchebag and I will have been officially split 7 months in 10 days. And I can honestly say I've reached the point where I am truly over the breakup.

I've had enough time and therapy to help me heal, and reflect and I know that it was the best thing that could have ever happened to ME.

Sure, it's been rough on the kiddos, and mainly that was my biggest issue with the whole breakup. I wasn't happy in my marriage either so it wasn't so much me upset about it being over, it was me being upset about how it was effecting the kiddos.

I am so much happier now... and I feel so free... and like I'm rediscovering myself. It helps sure, that I'm now dating a guy that is everything I could ever want in a "perfect" partner.

But even before I started dating him I was noticing that I had moved on and was experiencing life and happiness yet again. People still ask me occassionally if I would ever try to work things out with the douche.

And to me, there is nothing to work out. We both realized that we weren't right for each other. We got married when we were 18/19, just babies, who had no idea what we were getting ourselves into.

And honestly... I don't know what happened to him along the journey of life, but he had turned into a most undesirable person, and even if you offered me a million dollars, I would pass on ever being with him again. The misery would not be worth the money!

So this photo... used to be my fave before the split... because it was of what I thought was our happy family at the time... I was 8 months preggo with Timmy in this pic... but now I just look at it with sadness. It doesn't make me angry that we aren't a "family" anymore. Just sad. Sad that we brought kiddos into an equation that was so totally wrong. But now we have to do the best we can for damage control for the kiddos. Because they are the most important thing :)