I met the mirror

And I didn't like what I saw at all! Somehow I had let being in a bad marriage and giving birth to two babies take me from a slim and sexy size 8 to an ugh, don't even want to describe how I felt size 24!

I finally decided no more! I was a skinny girl trapped in a fat girls body, and the skinny girl wanted back out! I have since totally changed my lifestyle.

Where before I would dread exercise, I now seek it out as often as possible. Where before I didn't care what I ate,  now I watch what I eat oh so carefully. And it paid off, I lost 40 lbs in about 4 months!

Then depression took over and now I rarely feel like exercising, but I'm still losing weight, 13 more lbs to be exact this past month, simply because I'm so sad I don't feel like eating.

And every time I do end up forcing myself to eat, I get sick shortly thereafter. I know this is bad. I'm working to change this.

But I must say, losing 53 lbs in 5 months and going from a size 24 to a current size 14 has been amazing. But I am still nowhere near my goal of being back in a size 8.

Most people would still consider me "fat" at a size 14. But all I know is... I feel soooo much better than I did when I was wearing size 24 pants! And I know that eventually I will meet my goal and be a size 8 again.

I've just gotta get back on the healthy track of losing weight due to exercise, not from lack of eating!