They make me laugh, smile, pick me up when I'm down, hang out with me when I'm bored, babysit for me whenever they can, and best of all, no matter what, I know they have my back!
And in return, I hope they realize that I feel the same way, that I will ALWAYS have their back as well, no matter what curveballs life may throw at ANY of us.
I'm not very close with my family family... my mother has a lot of issues (mental and otherwise) and I have not spoken to her in almost 2 years.
It's hard to have to shut out the one person who should always be there for you, the person that gave you life, but in my case, it's most healthy for me and the kiddos if she is not apart of our lives.
And that was a hard decision to make and one I've recieved a lot of flack for, but everytime I start to waver and think, maybe just maybe she's gotten better or changed, I hear about her latest stunt she's pulled and I'm reaffirmed in my decision.
So I'm especially grateful to the fact that my friends have become my adopted family. So in this post, I would like to take some time to talk about all the special people in my life I would be totally lost without. (In no particular order of importance because I love you all EQUALLY! Well actually I'll probably do it in alphabetical order b/c it's easier LOL)
ALEX - I know I can always count on her for a hug when I'm feeling down. Her and I always used to talk about boys because she was having such a hard time finding a nondouchebag to date. I gave her some good advice (which I have yet to use myself haha) and lo and behold shes now in a very happy healthy relationship, and I'm so happy for her!
ALICEN - I know I can always count on her for pretty much anything. A couch to crash on should I need it, even a place to stay if I really needed it. She's someone you can vent to over coffee at the drop of a hat, she's even willing to babysit! Also, she has a sweet hookup at Papa Murphys hahaha. But that's not the best thing about her, she is refreshingly intelligent and funny as hell! She's in a relationship, been in one for quite some time. Don't know if she's always the happiest girl on the planet, but I know her boyfriend is good to her, and so for that I'm happy for her :)
ALISHA - I know I can always count on her for good advice, or for willingness to babysit! She's a little firecracker who always can make me laugh. Her and I are both living up the single life, so it's nice to have someone to talk to about that, since right now, amazingly enough for the first time ever, so many of my friends are IN relationships, and I'm NOT! She's the friend that THE PLAYER tried to sleep with. But she was smarter than me hahaha and didn't fall for his crap. I know eventually she's going to find a good man (when shes ready!).
ASHLEY - I've known her pretty much as long as I've known THE DOUCHEBAG because they used to be friends in highschool, but it's only recently that weve really become pretty good friends. She was a huge lifesaver to me in going with me to get signed up for foodstamps etc (since the doucher has left me in a pretty pickle financially). I hope she realizes that anything she needs, I'm here for her too! She has a cutie pie daughter too and is married (I think pretty much happily!) So I'm happy for her too!
GRETCHEN - We don't hang out like we should but this girl cracks me up, and I know at the drop of a hat if I needed her to "take someone out" for me, she'd do it. That's an amazing trait in a friend, haha. She's in a great relationship as well, so obviously she's doing something right, I should listen more to her advice!
JASMINE - Always always can count on this girl to be understanding and give great advice. She is my hope for the future. She was in a relationship with a similar douchebag and she was able to survive that breakup of her marriage and flourish. She did the single mom thing with 2 boys, so I know it can be done successfully. She is now in a wonderful marriage with a very loving man and they have a daughter now to add to their brood. Sounds like the perfect future to me, so I know it IS possible!
JENN - I've known you the longest of all my friends, since highschool! You haven't changed one bit, and I love that about you. You just gotta remember "NOBODY CARES!" Hahahaha. No but really, she is so great, always willing to listen to me vent... weathered every single breakup The Douchebag and I went through, always at my side no matter what. She too has had her share of crappy relationships and her and I are both living (and hating I think) the single life. Hey Jenn if you find me a boyfriend, I'll find you one, okay?
JENNIFER JOY - You are a beautiful woman and friend. I'm so happy for you that you just married the man of your dreams! You are always there for everyone, no matter what they need, and I love that about you. You are also quite hilarious, not to mention you are a great photographer. You captured some beautiful moments in my familys life, before it all went to shit. So for that I will be forever grateful that I have something to remember (the very rare) good times by.
JESSICA - I am so sad you moved SOOOO far away! But I know that despite the distance we will probably be friends for the rest of our lives because thats just how cool of a person you are! I am also so happy that you are married to your bestfriend, I know you guys will make it! I can't wait till you start poppin out some babies... don't get discouraged... it will all happen when and how its meant to happen :)
JILL - I think out of all my coworkers you may be the most "real" and one of the most hilarious. I love working with you, I know it's gonna be a good night when I see your name on the schedule. I think EVERYONE says that about you. So know that everyone thinks you're amazing!
KATHRYN - You are probably my most intuitive friend... you're one of those people that is good with doing the "little things" in life that make a big difference. I remember when I was hugely preggo in the summer and I was so hot... all I had to do was complain about being hot.... and you show up on my doorstep with 2 fans! You're always down to babysit, or have us over to make cookies. You too are one of my inspirations that was able to move on from a bad relationship, to now be in a really amazing relationship. I want to be a bridesmaid, just sayin'!
KELLY - You are probably my most honest and outspoken friend. And for that reason alone is enough to love you. You are my inspiration to start blogging! And I'm so glad that I've started b/c it's been very cathartic to be able to just vent and be real and honest, good or bad. You have really turned your life around... have a great job, and a great boyfriend, and I'm so proud and happy for you. If you can do it, I can do it :) And I will be forever grateful that you slapped THE PLAYER for me!
KENDRIA - You little hottie you, you are so gorgeous and I want to hate you for it but you're just so damn loveable, I can't! You are so smart and so grounded and it's so amazing to me because you're just a baby hahaha. I can always count on you to make me smile... and you're one of those people that when I ask "how's things?" you don't just blow me off and go "oh fine" you actually stop and take the time to go "Well..." And then 5 minutes later, I know how things are!
LAURISSA - You are probably the most freespirited of my friends. And you are very wise. I don't know if a lot of people realize that about you, but you are! You don't give yourself enough credit girly. You are Charlie's godmama, so I expect you to always be in our lives, mmkay? :) I'm so glad you finally had the guts to break free of your terrible relationship of the past. And I wish you much luck in your current relationship. But know that no matter what, I'm here for ya :)
LORYN - Losho... Warrant... ah... where to start with you. You are one of my best friends. I don't believe in picking just one best friend, but you're defintely up there kiddo. You have been there for me everytime I needed you. And best of all you are the one person I can count on to literally make me ROFL. Yes, really ROFL. You have been there for me through good times and bad. That is why I chose you to me Timmy's godmama, and what a great godmama you are :)
MARCY - I love you and I love your little daughter Alexis as if she were my own baby. That whole brain tumor scare... rocked me to the core. I think pretty much everybody was determined that there was no way in hell your baby girl was going anywhere... and look... shes still here, healthy and happy. Thats what friends love can do! You are my rock, you show me what it means to be a strong independent woman, who is doing an excellent job at the whole single mom bit. I'm sad you moved kinda far away and transfered stores cuz now I won't see ya as much, but I won't let ya slip away, your friendship means way too much to me for that!
NICHOLE - I think you and I have been through a lot of similar situations, so thats why we relate so well. Especially b/c you are so honest, and thats a trait I really value in people, especially in close friends. You are an amazing, friend, daughter, sister, and babysitter haha. One day you are gonna make a great Mama. I hope you've found that man of your dreams... but if you haven't yet, I have no doubt that one day you will!
NICK - You are my best guy friend. Perhaps really my only guy friend, lol, but still, you know what I mean. You have always given me great advice. I didn't always take it, but now that I know your advice is so good, I will be more dilligent about listening to you in the future! You've been a great shoulder to cry on through all this mess, I just wish you would cry back on my shoulder every now and again. This friends helping friends street thing goes both way ya know, you can't always be helping me, I want to help you too! Nobody should have to go through anything alone. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I think all your friends can attest to this.
OLGA - You are such a strong woman, I admire you. I know you joke that its easier to be single, but you and Josh are just so cute together, and you guys with David make such a beautiful family. I hope soon you guys add onto that family... one of my friends needs to have a baby now...because at 5 months I can't even see Timmy as a little tiny baby anymore, little tiny babies are sooo cute! No but really Olga, I love ya, you are so honest and giving, you are amazing!
RACHEL - You are probably one of my most steadfast friends. Very true to yourself, and you don't let anyone sway you in your thoughts or beliefs, and I admire that so much in you, I wish I could be more like you! I know you say you don't need men, and will probably never get married... but I have to hope that someday you will feel that spark and be in love, at least once, for a little while, because its something everyone you get at least a little taste of :)
RAY - You are amazing! I don't know how you do it! You're such an incredible mama to those little twin girls :) I'm so happy that you met Xavier and you're living out your dreams! I can always count on you to make me laugh or tell it like it is!
SHANNON - Oh my Shannon... You have been my biggest help and my biggest ally through this whole breakup with The Douchebag. I know you will always be there for me. I am so sad that you are now going through a breakup of your own. You just gotta remember that the same strength you've shown me, and want me to have, you need to have that too. I will always be your help and ally through whatever you have to go through. Know that you are a great person that has a lot to offer, don't ever forget that. Don't get so bogged down in your emotions that you forget who you are. Everything happens for a reason. I know in the end you will perserve and you and Brodi will get through this and make it out better and stronger people for it. :)
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