Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
So a lot of people in my life have wronged me... and it has always been very hard for me to forgive. I know I should probably be more forgiving... but I feel like that just gives them an excuse to hurt you again... and its better protection to just hate them forever and cut them out of your life.
That's what I've done with my own mother, The Douchebag, The Smooth Operator, and The Player. But I have to forgive someone, right?
So I guess... of all those people... the person who hurt me the least, but still hurt me, nonetheless was The Player. So I will find the gumption within myself to forgive him. Player...
You wronged me and caused me a lot of pain... but I need to stop and think maybe, theres a reason for the way you acted... and maybe I could have handled things differently as well.
Let's examine what I know about you and maybe therein I can understand maybe, why you did what you did. You, like me, are going through a divorce. You, like me, were left for another person.
Maybe in your pain, you lashed out, and fell back on old habits of using women without regard to their feelings.
This does not make what you did okay... but at least maybe if I know that you are also human, and a person whos going through a hard time, I can find some understanding and forgiveness for you.
But I won't forget... You did give me some happy moments in my life, and for that, I thank you. And maybe my mistake was expecting too much too soon from you.
And therefore when you did what you did.... it made it hurt all the worse. Sometimes I think I care about people too much... and this gets me into trouble. So okay, Player... I forgive you...
Maybe this is easy because I know you will never read this, haha! :)
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