I'm keeping an eye on the future, and an eye on the past...

I figure its about time that I give a little update on the ol love life... since people are asking... if I have a new boy or not...

So technically the answer is no, not yet. But there is the possibility of something on the horizon. But first... I have to make the ever famous choice... between choosing past and future.

I decided to follow my friends (not therapists) advice and take a break from the whole dating scene and pursuit of a new boy... all my friends kept saying... oh you just need to focus on you right now and you don't need a man and when you least expect it the right man will come into your life.

Well that is maybe happening? I'm not sure... 

Last June... when The Douchebag and I split up for a few months before the final split.... I had found a nice guy that I just sorta used... for a friends with benefits thing.

He knew I was split up from my husband and was hurting from the fact that I had been cheated on... and I guess I used him as a validation that I was still a desirable woman... but I never had serious intentions with him because I always assumed that The Douchebag and I would get back together.... and we did and so I cut ties with... his codename shall the THE SOUTHERN GENTLEMAN, which I shall shorten to The Gent.

Well ever since the final split with the douchebag... The Gent and I have been talking again... I've been talking to him about all my emotions and issues dealing with the breakup, and he's been talking about all the issues and emotions with his moms recent death.

So in  way, we have the grief thing in common. And things have been said and it has come to light that he would be interested in starting things up again with me... but not in the friends with benefits sense... in the having a serious relationship sense.... now that he knows that I'm really done with The Douchebag... he wants to see if we could have something more than just sex.

And I'm really torn... should I just leave the past in the past, meaning, dont't give a relationship with The Gent a shot... I mean... can you really form a relationship when all you've had in the past with that person is sexual?

Should I keep taking that break... maybe The Gent coming back into my life isn't the right guy coming into my life when I'm not looking... maybe there is someone else out there for me...
Oh choices... choices....