Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
I've had to do a lot of things I hoped I never had to do already... I had hoped I would never be divorced. I had hoped I would never have to be a single mom.
I had hoped that I would never have to rely on the government for any kind of assistance. I had hoped I would be able to provide my kids the perfect life which meant having a family and never having to want for anything.
I had hoped I would never have to go into debt. I had hoped I would never have to borrow money from friends. I had hoped I would never have to rely SO MUCH on my friends to help me out.
So many dashed hopes and dreams... and all because of The Douchebag... no wonder I hate him so much! But I still find the will and the strength to go on... and to try to do the best I can by my kids, because they mean the world to me.
And so it is with them, that there is the ultimate something I hope I never have to do. Which is have to give full custody of them to The Douchebag because I can no longer afford to provide for them.
I am doing everything I can to try to prevent that... but he is doing everything he can to try to make that happen. I truly believe his ultimate goal in life is to break me completely.
I think he wishes he was able to hurt me badly enough, that I would kill myself. Because then in his mind, he wins. He knows my last hope for living is my kids... and without them life would be pointless.
If he succeeds in taking them away from me... God help us all.
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