I could afford to not give a shit

But, I do give a shit, lol. I know I like to pretend that I don't care what other people think of me... and I tell my friend Jenn all the time that she cares way too much what people think of her... and I should really practice what I preach... but I can't help but wonder and care... what kind of impact I leave on people. And thus follows, my day 11 in the 30 days of truth!

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

I get a lot of compliments. About a lot of different things. I've always been bad at accepting compliments... but I'm trying to be better and see the value in myself that everyone else can see...

But the compliment I probably get the most... is regarding my intelligence. I know a lot of times I dumb myself down for people because I don't like to intimidate, or alienate anyone... but apparently some of that intelliegence still manages to shine through.

I have book smarts sure... I was one of those people in highschool that would piss you off because I never studied for tests... and yet I still aced them. Or I would half ass write papers at the last minute... and still get good marks... but book smarts can only take you so far in life.

I wish I had better emotional intelligence... I still seem to make a lot of mistakes in life... and I wish I were smarter in that aspect... I would trade my book smarts for "street smarts" anyday...

If I had better emotional intelligence... I would already be completely moved on from The Douchebag, The Smooth Operator, and The Player... but I'm making progress... Player has been forgiven, Operator has been eradicated... and Douchebag... well he hurt me the most of anyone so he can't be forgiven, and we have kids together so he can't be eradicated... but I'm hoping that given time... I will be able to move on and not hate him as much.

But he has just as big a role to play in that as I do... he needs to quit being such a douchebag!  LOL... I love that my grandma (who reads my blog) has even started referring to him as The Douchebag :P